A Public Diary – #5

In her fifth enstallment of A Public Diary, Kellie muses about writing her novel, and the creative process as a recovering depressed person.

Kellie Hogan

June 13, 2014 | Summer 2014

June 13 2014

I’ve been working on my “novel” again. I’ve written like 10,000 words and I’ve been doing a lot of editing. Do you want to read it? Well it’s your lucky day, I’ve recorded an audiobook.

Here’s an excerpt from it that I quite like:

“A single butterfly wing serves no purpose. It looks pretty and all, but without it’s other half, it is perfectly useless. The shape of Ohio is like a single butterfly wing.”

ohio butterfly wingI had to set the book in Ohio once I wrote this image. I’ve been to Ohio, but I hardly remember anything about it. But I kind of like how nondescript it feels. It doesn’t feel too different from my homeland of Canada.

Somewhere between 2011 and 2013 I stopped working on my novel.

This spring something changed. I changed.

“You’re doing so well!” My therapist tells me.

“So why am I here…”

(She laughs).

“5:30 PM, darling. Just wake up?” Pistol let himself into her apartment, touching her on the shoulder as he pushed by.

“Well da Vinci had a polyphasic sleep cycle, so I’ve been trying it out. You know, increasing productivity.” McGill smiled out of the side of her pursed mouth, desperately brushing her messy hair with her fingers.

Sometimes I draw upon my life. Life imitating art imitating life. My characters aren’t too different from myself. But if I want them to get up and do something, they do it. In my life action isn’t quite that simple. I’m an avoider.

Writing a novel is hard. They don’t tell you that…

Actually I have a distinct memory of my creative writing prof at UBC, Steven Galloway, telling the class not to become writers. It was his biggest piece of advice for a room full of aspiring writers (and a few people trying to get an easy ‘A’). It didn’t depress me. It motivated me.

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Kellie Hogan

Kellie Hogan is the only person who Kellie Hogan finds funny; don’t even try to make her laugh unless you’ve won a daytime Emmy. She gets most of her work done at 3 am, after spending the entire day sleeping, painting her nails, and writing to-do lists. She's a Peggy Olsen at work and a Peggy Olsen in the bedroom. She is the Editor-in-Chief of inconnu.

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